Tuesday 14th: Packing stuff up, feeling sad about leaving

I woke up feeling pretty good in the morning because I had fun hanging out with Amanda and Amelia the night before. But then I started to think that I'd just like to stay here with these people and keep doing fun things and that I haven't really shown people much of who I am, because I don't really tell much about myself or act very outgoing until I've known people for a while and I was only starting to feel myself doing that lately, now when it's time to leave. I was a bit annoyed at my bad social skills and having to say goodbye to these great people thinking that I haven't really let them get to know me to a great level, and regretting that I could have made more of things.

So I spent the first half of the day feeling alright and then the second half feeling a bit down. Fred and Charlotte asked if I wanted to have a bbq with them and some other people, but I decided that I wanted to hang out with Amanda and Amelia and other people because I had a nice time with them the night before. But then I started to feel a bit depressed about the whole thing and the kind of ruined the night for me. I think I had been feeling really overwhelmed by the ending of things for a little while and that exacerbated things. I think it is a really intense situation to be in and lots of things were acting upon me and I wasn't able to step back from it and get some stability to my thoughts, so it was not good.

I met up with the girls from D-Block and then we walked over to Beeston to get some food and then over to the house Billie would be staying in in Broadgate Park.

A last picture of the wall filled with cool stuff I'm trying to remember.

Packing up my room.

Walking to Billie's house through the campus. Taking probably the last pictures of the lovely campus.

It was really hot inside from the cooking, and I was feeling terrible, so after a while I went outside for a walk with Amanda and described to her while I'm feeling terrible. She's a really nice person and I was very appreciative to have someone to talk with.